Watching the raindrops creating tiny waves in this puddle, I realise this is how anxiety feels. Small and seemingly innocuous events, words, people’s actions or emails that I am not in control of increase until it feels as if I am in a rainstorm – the mind rippling out and out so that I cannot smooth the surface. I am beginning to wonder if our general growing acknowledgment of anxiety is to do with the huge number of ‘tiny…
The weather has changed today. It’s much cooler than it was, less sunny. It has made me think about change: how we embrace or resist it. How sometimes it can be so good for you and at other times it’s exactly what is not needed. In the past I’ve needed to stay still, to root in one place in order to grow and change slowly, like a tree. I needed those times so that I could be around the same…
Today I hiked along the north Wales hills. This photograph (thanks Andy) has made me smile because it reminds me of how far I’ve come. Around 13 years ago the world changed quite dramatically and I felt as if I were going quite mad while at the same time discovering both myself and a deep and profound connection with nature. I had a compulsion to walk these hills as I tried to understand the new ways in which I was…