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I take responsibility for who I am

June 11, 2019

Revisiting some earlier sections of OUTSIDER this week before the new Patreon chapter drops on Thursday morning. Back in March 2018 I wrote: I am mother, partner, daughter, step-mother, granddaughter & grandmother, (these last two seem impossible but the five of us span almost a century) and it has taken a long time to see past the guilt of needing more than this, of being more than this. I realise now that I am not solely these things, they are…

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Happiness is a state of mind

May 23, 2019

As much as Instagram might want to prove otherwise, Vanlife isn’t all syrupy sunsets and myth-filled forests of giants. We spent yesterday day & night in this camping superstore car park near Magenta, Italy surrounded by other vans, facing a noisy, traffic-filled roundabout. It made me think on the phrase: happiness is a state of mind. It doesn’t really matter where you are or who you’re with, if you’re not happy in yourself then you’re going to find things to…

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Tuning in

March 22, 2019

This week the moon illuminated something I’d already known for a long time, it was just hidden under the surface: I am learning to eat out of love for my body, instead of hatred, or worse, indifference. This is a huge revelation. I ask my stomach (instead of my head) ‘what would we like today?’ I say to my body, ‘I love you and want to look after you’. I’ve been reading more about Body Positivity and am trying to…

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Resetting the psyche

March 18, 2019

There’s no telling when an emotional slump will hit. These days I feel more able to root out the cause but it’s often not a single event, instead a few tiny insignificant things will collide in the psyche at the same time then snowball. Living slowly means I’m not hurtling into another project or drama or deadline without the time to check in with myself, which is the most amazing self-care self-gift. We’ve had a magical few days but still,…

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Olive tree insights

March 10, 2019

I’ve been thinking a lot about connections recently – how we make them, or break them, especially with the earth. One of the things I’ve struggled with is worrying that the ways in which I connect with nature are not the ‘proper ways’ and that I ‘should’ (there’s that word again 🤦🏻‍♀️) be doing it x y or z instead of whatever comes naturally. Shamanic drumming and the journeying used by these processes don’t work for me (fuck knows I’ve…

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Ceremony for letting go: last quarter moon (release)

January 28, 2019

When I could no longer hold onto anger / I sought release / how do you move away from something that has shaped you for so long it is part of your physical being? / shoulders hunched, I sit at sunset & watch the death of the day / bare feet flat on cold earth / womb heavy with blood / heavy with containment / heavy with all the things I should have said: it is not my fault; I…

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Self acceptance

December 5, 2018

  Watching the world go by… I haven’t posted many photos of myself on here in the past as maybe I felt that I needed to look thinner, or prettier, or taller, or have better cheekbones, or have more silky hair. But oddly, since turning 40 a couple of years ago I’ve found the confidence to just like what I look like – because that’s what I look like. This body has got me this far in life and she’s…

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shinrin-yoku

August 31, 2018

After a couple of days in Manchester I’m now leaving Andy and the hounds in north Wales and jumping on the train to South Wales for an event in Swansea tomorrow. I wanted to take time for some forest bathing in the woods we used to walk every day with our dogs before leaving. The Japanese call forest bathing shinrin-yoku. Shinrin means “forest,” and yoku means “bath.” Ah! This makes my heart sing. I’ve shared so many poems, laughs and…

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Anxiety tryptic

August 8, 2018

Thought I might as well make this a tryptic on anxiety. This is a photo from a few weeks ago. It nearly broke Andy’s Instagram page 🙈 with all the ❤. We love each other dearly but it’s a lot of work being the van, which is making us work harder at our relationship. Communication is key. It is everything. And although it’s hard, we’ve also been in the normal world, rolling along for years without really talking about the…

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Riding out anxiety

August 8, 2018

  I wrote in an earlier post this morning about anxiety and how it feels. One of the ways I deal with it is by getting out on my bike. I find interacting with people quite difficult as I often feel misunderstood and to be honest I don’t get where people are coming from with things. I can get hung up on ‘what the fuck did they mean??’ circling round and round a conversation or email for hours examining it…

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